When My Old Beliefs Challenge The Happy Life

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My life, like all things, exists as a paradox. The paradox is only now very clear to me. I’m working through healthcare issues, non-life threatening ones. But they do show how Belief Constellations create corresponding realities.

As confidence in my own practice grows, I’m focusing into reality manifestations nearly everyone believes are impossible. And yet, evidence grows proving Seth’s and Abraham’s contention that everything, no matter what, is possible.

But a period of years passed in which I sowed manifestations consistent with “sloppy creation” or unconscious creation. I harbored beliefs which generated a lot of momentum. That momentum created undesirable physical manifestations. But since I accepted beliefs as most of us do, I accepted those physical manifestations as a part of me. I didn’t need to do that.

For example, 22 years ago, I started a new job at Intel. It was a textbook manifestation. The new opportunity brought more money, more opportunity, more prestige. Furthermore, it was something I specifically asked for. And, how it unfolded was truly magical. But the experience created unwanted manifestations too. Here’s what happened.

The set up goes great

At the time I ran the media relations department of a large federal electric utility. I also was the agency’s media spokesperson. As such, I worked the media. One of those people was a journalist I’ll call Cooper. He covered energy for the local newspaper. Over time, we became great friends. While we became friends, I grew tired of the electric industry.

Meanwhile, high tech was making a lot of people rich. More high tech was coming to the Northwest. The jewell of the Northwest’s high tech sector at the time was Intel. It had built a number of large facilities recently. And so they were hiring a lot of new people.

I decided it would be wonderful working at Intel. So I went to work with my then manifestation process. I set my intention. Then added momentum behind it. Then I let it go.

I got my media job at the energy agency the same way. So I knew “you create your reality” was true. But I wasn’t as strong in it as I am today. Nor was I as deliberate or focused. Even while I produced stunning manifestations, I still harbored many disempowering beliefs in my constellations.

One of those was “I can’t hack it at a private company”. “It’s cut throat in the private sector” was another. “People stab you in the back,” I imagined. I figured my bosses would find out I couldn’t handle it and fire me. These thoughts commingled along with my desire to work at Intel.

Many folks enjoy the private sector. I had different beliefs. (Photo by Israel Andrade on Unsplash)

Textbook manifestation

I recognized those beliefs as true. I didn’t think about the fact that those beliefs create my reality too.

Beliefs often are more powerful than desire. That’s because beliefs have momentum behind them. Reality often proves them true as well. Or rather it works vice-versa. Belief momentum creates corresponding realities. We look at those realities as evidence. The evidence seems to prove the belief true, when really, the belief came first.

So when I focused on getting a job at Intel and let it go, I didn’t think about cleaning up my vibration on that subject. Meaning, I didn’t think about cleaning up these unflattering beliefs about working at Intel.

A textbook manifestation happened next.

Silicon wafer manufacturing is Oregon’s high tech jewell. I wanted in one of those companies. So I manifested an opportunity. (Photo by Laura Ockel on Unsplash)

Intel recruited Cooper out of the newspaper. He became Intel’s media spokesperson. Cooper was now a media relations colleague. I had no idea this happened until some time later.

When sometime later happened, I got a call from Cooper. He told me Intel had a community relations manager role for which I’d be perfect. I applied. Weeks later Intel made me an offer.

The whole process floored me. I watched it unfold the whole way astounded. I left the energy agency and began my new job as Intel’s community relations manager in 2000.

It didn’t go well

The job actually was great and I performed very well. The problem was my old beliefs. Remember those beliefs I described above about working in the private sector? Little did I know, those beliefs were manifesting too. As a result, my experience of this wonderful manifestation included a lot of anxiety. Self-doubt also plagued me. The team I managed picked up on that like a pack of alpha wolves. Some of them behaved in ways I feared.

All that manifested in me as physical symptoms too. I developed stress and anxiety. I started having stomach problems like heartburn. Long story short, stomach acid leaked into my esophagus over time. It scarred tissue linings there which caused a mild stricture.

One day, a year or two after starting at Intel, I had a medical emergency. I got food stuck in my esophagus right at the stricture, which needed emergency removal. At the emergency room, doctors told me I had a “tapering esophagus.” They stretched that part of my esophagus with a rod they pushed down my throat, which fixed the problem. But doctors told me I’d need the procedure again in about ten years.

A medical emergency clued me in to my momentum. (Photo by Yassine Khalfalli on Unsplash)

Which brings us back to today. It’s been way more than ten years, but I had started feeling food stick in my throat again. As a veteran, I get free medical care from my local VA. When I told them about my “condition”, they immediately set me up for a redux of the procedure had many years ago.

You can’t ignore past manifestation

And here’s where this story comes full circle. I left Intel because I wasn’t happy there. Leaving coincided directly with commitments I made to double down on all this “you create your reality” business. That commitment included wanting to know and experience everything in my reality as manifesting beliefs. Including conditions in my physical body.

The problem is, I have legacy manifestations. Manifestations which manifested as a result of old beliefs. Beliefs which created these manifestations in the first place. Manifestations including this gastro situation.

I can’t ignore my past manifestations while creating new ones. My gastro situation emerged as a direct manifestation of my beliefs. A new procedure on the body will work temporarily. But unless the underlying belief goes away, the problem will resurface.

Doctors want me on an acid reflux reducing prescription. They say that drug will prevent future recurrences. But I believe prescriptions are unnecessary. My old beliefs say medical intervention must happen to “cure” physical health problems. But these days, I want vibrational solutions.

Since leaving Intel, I eliminated from my body several things people call “illnesses”. I haven’t had a cold in years. I used to get at least two colds a year. One in the spring and another in the fall. Not anymore.

I know those changes result from vibrational focus. So when I think about getting on this prescription, it feels contrary to how I think and believe today. Yet, I still must recognize the prescription as a manifestation. A manifestation of old beliefs about “healthcare” and how to “cure” symptoms.

Creating deliberately

I believe I sufficiently soothed old beliefs around work. Money flows into my life with no relationship to “work”. My life no longer includes working in high pressure jobs. And my desires these days involve creating wealth through manifestation. Not working. In the same way, I needn’t take this prescription.

I recently told my VA primary care doctor I regard the mind as the best medicine. To my surprise, he and his team agreed with me. So I want to soothe beliefs perpetuating this “stricture”. I also want to soothe beliefs creating other physical conditions. Conditions not part of my original body blueprint.

I believe I can live free of all prescriptions. I know many Americans accumulate medicine dependencies as they age. I’m choosing a different path. So I expect improvement, not decrepitude, as I age. It’s like Abraham recently said in an email:

Esther’s intent mirrors mine.

I appreciate old beliefs. I also appreciate seeing connections now obvious between how I once believed and what my health looks like. And I’m eager to see both those beliefs and those conditions improve as I consistently construct my Charmed Life.

What experiences have you had where you’ve changed your physical condition through mind as medicine? What conditions are you still working on? Do conditions you currently experience challenge your belief that thoughts create your reality?

I’d love hearing your experiences.

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