I’ve found the best relationship fosters the greatest freedom. The best relationship therefore is the one I have with me. My Personal Trinity.
Relationships with other people can’t match it.
But when I prioritize my relationship with my Inner Being, all other relationships get better. Or they disappear from my life experience. Or they’re replaced by better versions of themselves.
It’s hard describing with accuracy how great my relationship with me feels. Like the feeling of love or bliss, it defies description.
I know the benefits I get when I prioritize my relationship with me are far more valuable than those I get when I prioritize relationships with other people.
I can say prioritizing my Inner Being relationship required owning parts of me I avoided. Like how powerful I am. Like knowing I created the life experience I’ve had, including the people in it. And knowing I can create any reality I want. No matter my current reality.
It also required accepting other parts of me. Authentic parts. Accepting them fully.
That I prefer being free. Meaning, preferring something other than constraints marriage brings.
That I find transgender women smart, beautiful and extraordinary.
That the mainstream binary spectrum doesn’t define me.
Making my relationship with me my priority blew up my marriage. That’s right. I knew for a while it was coming. It was not ever intending to last. It was temporary as all things are. She filed for divorce a few weeks ago. I’m sure it’s final now. We’re both moving forward. And that’s great. It was a learning experience for both parties.
I know divorce happened because my relationship with me became more important than my marriage. Examined from a Positively Focused perspective my marriage played its part in my unmarriedness.
It offered so much authenticity I realized what I wanted. And marriage was not it.
I also realized how deep, fulfilling and rewarding my relationship with me is. So marriage served a glorious purpose.
As all life experience does.
My new, post-marriage life already has brought monumental evidence. Evidence supporting prioritizing my me/me relationship. It comes like a slow motion avalanche. In quantities sufficient to astound but not overwhelm.
I manifested paying work as soon as I needed it
I manifested an awesome living place. It’s beautifully furnished and owned by landlords aligned with Positive Focus.
I live within biking distance of every grocer I like shopping at. I’m also walking distance to many places I enjoy visiting. Including parks, water spots, and tea shops.
I have all I need to move forward with my projects including my 1:1 Spiritual Mentoring. There’s ample space to make videos, and blazing fast internet (included in the rent). Most of my mentoring I do online.
And, several people, bringing differing levels of intimacy have replaced my marriage. That’s a far better fit to what and who I am than being tied to one person.
I know beliefs I hold create my life experience. The more Positively Focused I become the better my life goes.
When it comes to people relationships, Seth describes what happens when a person makes their me/me relationship a top priority:
People with like ideas reinforce each other’s beliefs. You may meet with some misunderstanding when you suddenly decide to change your reality by changing your beliefs—according to the circumstances, you may be going in a completely different direction than [your spouse]. The others may feel it necessary to defend ideas that both of you previously took for granted. In such cases your beliefs merged. Each individual has his or her own ideas about reality for reasons that seem valid. Needs are met. When you abruptly change your beliefs, then in the [marriage] you no longer have the same position—you are not playing that game any longer…you may suddenly cease to provide for [your spouse] a need that you satisfied earlier. This affects both intimate behavior and, say, social interactions. Others, sharing your new beliefs, will gravitate toward you and you to them.
The quote is playing out in my life.
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One belief we humans share is relationships with other people complete us somehow. Like without a relationship, we’re not whole.
It’s a strong belief.
What I’ve learned is, that yearning is real.
But as I try filling it with another person I’m asking for trouble. Because people aren’t here to satisfy that yearning. They have their own path. Their own experience. Their own reality.
That yearning is natural. It’s normal. And it’s meant to direct me to the relationship that brings everything I want. Including, ironically, fulfilling relationships with other people.
I prioritize that relationship because my Inner Being not only knows what I want. It knows the “where” the “when” and the “how” to get those things. That leaves me worry-free. It leaves me not needing any of those answers about anything I want.
When I follow my intuition, which is how my Inner Being communicates, I get those things. It handles the “where” the “when” and the “how”.
My job: finding ways to synchronize with my Inner Being focus. When I do that, what I want happens in delightful ways, yes. But also with little effort, struggle and sacrifice.
When I’m not synchronized with my Inner Being, life happens how it does for most people. With a lot of blame, judgement, demanding, frustration, annoyance, impatience, pain, hard work, struggle, sacrifice, anxiety and more. Absent all that, I find continual freedom, joy and happiness.
And, yes, everything else I want too. Including great relationships, and material things, including money.
I think it’s worth giving up yearning for human relationships.
Besides, what human-to-human relationship can match what my Inner Being brings? When I get that relationship right, right relationships come into my life.
That’s why I call my relationship with my Inner Being the best relationship.
How Manifestations happen is a great secret of the Universe. I know Manifestation is instant. The question I put to myself is: Is my awareness broad enough to see it when it happens?
One Universal secret I’m learning through life experience is this: Universal secrets are “hidden” in Plain Sight. Including Manifestations.
As my awareness expands enough to see with Plain Sight, the secrets stop being secrets. They become the way life is.
For example, I know Manifestations are instant in my Experience of Origin. The moment I want something, it’s done in Inner Reality. I know this because I “see” them there, in the Moment of Becoming (MOB).
Compared to Inner Reality, Physical Reality contains more resistance. It’s part of the framework. That’s a good thing.
Besides, I’m not always clear about things I want. Time, which is synonymous with “Resistance“, helps me refine my desires.
Resistance decreases as focus moves from physical reality, through the Moment of Becoming (MOB) towards nonphyisical or Inner Reality.
I’m glad, therefore, that there’s more Resistance in Physical Reality. It allows time to clarify desire.
But…
Physical Reality Manifestations can be instantaneous. Yes, Physical Reality has more built-in Resistance. But resistance I introduce slows Manifestations.
Actually, what happens is my Resistance distorts my reality. So much so I can’t see Manifestations manifesting.
The more Positively Focused I am, the better I see. The more plain my sight gets. In Plain Sight I see manifestations all over the place. That’s because as resistance drops and sight gets plain, awareness expands. Plain Sight means, less distortion. Distortion is seeing reality through my Resistance.
One thing I see in Plain Sight I find surprising: Manifestations almost always deliver on many fulfilled desires.
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My last post, for example, described how my “dream job” manifested. That manifestation was instant. Once I focused, it popped into view. I knew it was “done”. All I had to do was take simple steps to full realization.
That’s how all Manifestations happen. If I have Plain Sight, that is.
But this job also fulfilled another desire. Many actually, but I’ll focus on one in this post. I didn’t realize this fulfillment until a couple days ago. I’ll explain that in more detail in a moment. First (as always 😜 ) some background:
I want to travel North and South Americas’ open roads in a Recreational Vehicle. I’m specific about what this looks like. I want a Ford F-150 and an Airstream trailer. I’m even more specific than that. I want a white, extended cab F-150, Platinum Edition with the 6.5 foot bed, ecoboost engine, towing package and more. I’m very detailed with the truck 👍🏾👍🏾👍🏾.
The Truck that will tow my Airstream.
The Truck that will tow my Airstream.
The beautiful interior.
The Truck that will tow my Airstream.
I’m detailed about the Airstream too. I want a late model 27-foot, front bedroom, queen bed Airstream Serenity or Globe Trotter. I know what colors and textures I want in both the truck and Airstream. And I know my Personal Trinity is coordinating this whole package.
Even as I write this.
I want to visit all the state and national parks. I want to visit all the coast lines. While I’m doing all this traveling, I want to write this and my other blogs, with income realized from my passions. I also want to continue my 1:1 spiritual mentoring sessions while on the road. I want to make videos and movies about my experiences and expanding awareness too.
I’ve written before about resistance standing between me and this full-blown Manifestation. So manifesting this desire is taking a while…
Or is it?
The layout is perfect.
The iconic exterior.
I love this color combo.
The bed looks so comfy!
Desires do manifest full-blown and instantly. And, they manifest “all the way”. All the way, though, may not look like a fully-manifested desire.
With Resistance standing between me and them, I get a distorted view. My desires manifest immediately. Full blown. The question is, is my awareness broad enough to see them plainly?
My awareness is broadening all the time. In that broadening, I’m seeing my immediate manifestations more plain. That broadening awareness revealed my dream job, not only as a dream job. But a manifestation of traveling the open road.
It doesn’t looklike I’m traveling open roads. It doesn’t look like exploring and writing blogs and doing spiritual mentoring. It doesn’t look those ways if you’re looking at it one way. A distorted way.
Look at it plainly though and that’s exactly what’s happening. It is an immediate manifestation of my desire given my current resistance levels.
In other words, I have my Manifestation. The current, always clarifying, always getting better version of the Manifestation, I call, “traveling the world in an airstream trailer with an F-150” is the job I have.
You may laugh and think I’m deluded. But consider the corroborating correlations:
My job has me on the road on a daily basis.
Last week, I travelled I-5 from Portland to Eugene, Ore. and back on a beautiful sunny day. Over four hours of glorious alone time. On the open road. In beautiful weather.
I drive a Ford Truck. A cargo van, yes. But it’s a Ford. And it drives like a truck.
I don’t tow a trailer. But I do have ample room in back to take breaks in, enjoy my lunch and have private time no matter where I am. Just like I would were I towing a trailer.
Every day I get to explore parts of Portland I haven’t seen before. I get to see beautiful neighborhoods, homes and interact with friendly people. I get to see places I wouldn’t have if I didn’t have this job.
The job feels like I’m on the road all the time. Which I am. Ninety percent of the time I’m working, I’m behind the wheel traveling from one place to another.
When I’m working, I’m on my own. I get to self-start and self-manage. I set my own pace, consistent with data metrics. Essentially, I’m on my own.
While I’m working, I get insight on blogs to write, videos to make and illustrations to create.
No wonder my Inner Being said this was exactly where I was mean to be. Not only is it on the path to new partners and opportunities. It’s also fulfilling my desire to be full time behind the wheel.
Seeing parallels between my full-blown desire and my driving job takes creativity. But isn’t that what Manifestation is? Isn’t that what LIFE is? Focusing on the positive aspects of this job is important. It turns what I’m doing now into the fuller, richer, more satisfying version of the desire I have. That also effects all my other desires swirling in my Moment of Becoming.
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My desires are living things. They are refining themselves all the time. Even after they pop into material manifestation, they’re still becoming more.
“Manifestation”, the process, isn’t about having desires become things. It’s about expanding my awareness to plainly see ongoing, constant manifestation of manifestations. It’s about me seeing that my Manifestations are expanding. As I expand.
As I see with increasing clarity, my Manifestations become more. What that means is every moment contains Manifestations I want. The question is, can I see them?
In Plain Sight I can.
More often I stumble into them. That’s ok, because when I do it’s delightful. And get this. This job is fulfilling many desires at the same time. Seeing this itself is a manifestation! All Manifestations, no matter their size, have this potential.
Which is why life can be, and is, an ongoing, moment by moment, joyful experience. A Charmed Life in other words.
Bottom line: my dream job is the furthest forward Manifestation of several desires I have. Desires which are in varying stages of manifesting, dependent on how much Resistance I hold. My ability to know this depends on how clearly I see.
When I saw my job this new way, it shook me. I got goose bumps up and down my body. I know goose bumps say something important. They show up when I see Physical Reality through the eyes of my Inner Being. I know seeing these correlations equals expansion. A broadening of my awareness. As that happens, my manifested desires become more. I become more. My Inner Being delights in that. It communicates its delight in the most intimate way: goose bumps.
This current version of my on-the-road Manifestation is cool by itself. But it also is morphing into the full-blown more version. The version where I’m enjoying North and South America. Enjoying them from behind the wheel of my F-150, towing my Airstream.
The key to moving from where I am, to that more full-blown manifested version, is this: Standing in deep appreciation, joy and enthusiasm about the manifested version I’ve got right now.
We humans think a dream job is one that checks our boxes.
Great pay. Interesting work in a field we choose. Lots of bennies and more.
But this is what society tells us a dream job is.
I know a real dream job is one that comes to from nonphysical, the world of dreams. It’s born of my connection to my Inner Reality. Because of that, my dream job matches who I am in the moment.
This true story shows what I mean. As I tell this story, my Inner Being will chime in. Consider it nonphysical color commentary 😀. I’ll italicize their input. Like this:
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We know Perry’s life experience is a dream experience. It is no less a dream than dreams he dreams nightly. Physical human life experience, or wake-scape, looks more real. That’s only because humans put most of their attention on it. Wake-scape springs from and renews itself from dream-scape. Wake-scape is dream-scape, materialized. It is a more tangible dream.
What humans call dreams can be as real as wake-scape. There is great benefit cultivating such awareness. Perry knows this. Finding experiential balance between waking “reality” and his Reality of Origin – his dream-scape – produces seemingly extraordinary experiences in Perry’s wake-scape. But they aren’t extraordinary. They are “facts of life”. They’re what happens when anyone prioritizes their relationship with their Inner Reality.
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In a previous post I said I would share how I got the bridging job I now enjoy. My Broader Perspective says this is the perfect job for me right now. Almost daily neat realizations spring from it.
I’ve written in previous posts about some of those. How I got this job is what this post is about.
I’m surprised how much I enjoy this job. It’s not what I would have said I wanted to do at this stage in my life. But so much changed since making my Inner Reality my top priority…
Before that, my aspirations came from Belief Constellations I created. I created these constellations listening to parents, teachers, television, and observing others’ experiences. My own life experience and interpretations of said experience also contributed. All this formed rich constellations of beliefs. Beliefs from which came my aspirations: A rewarding career. A luxury car. A nice home. Lots of money. The American Dream.
Living from my Reality of Origin is far more rewarding than what I had. Focusing on the Moment of Becoming, while holding awareness of my Experience of Origin, makes physical life experience fascinating. I’m far more thrilled than when I was a “successful professional” with all that stuff.
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Fascination is what life experience is. It becomes ho-hum when humans forget how every instant springs from what Perry calls “Belief Constellations”. You create your reality. The fascination returns when you get this, then see your creation’s emergence from thoughts you think. Once visceral, tangible, physical life experience proves this to you, more than anything you want to express that creative ability more and more. Life becomes fascinating again. As you knew it would before you decided to physically materialize.
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Here are some of the beliefs included in my past Belief Constellation(s). Maybe you identify with some of them:
Success is the American Dream
Owning expensive things indicates success
Marriage is the epitome of relationship success
Having expensive and varied life experiences are success indicators
Having lots of money indicates success
Having a great socially-stimulating lifestyle, with lots of friends and lovers is success
An executive job with a high-faluting title and fat salary means you’ve made it
None of these things are bad. I had all those things. I enjoyed aspects of them.
But my enjoyment was perverted. They weren’t essentially enjoyable. They were expedients. What made them that? How I experienced them.
You see, all that success masked an inner yearning. I was outwardly successful. I also was stuck. I felt a missing…
As you know, society, marketers and the internet says things and experiences can fill that missing. I believed them. So I sought satisfaction, meaning and self-worth in these things.
Seeking my self-worth in that, I ignored my essential essence. I gained the world and lost (my connection to) my Soul Awareness. I was outwardly happy in the sense that I knew people looked at my life and admired what I achieved.
But I had achievement backwards.
Back then achievement was what others said it was. Now achievement is simple: being happy. It’s fascinating transitioning from previous belief constellations to the current, still emerging, constellations.
Happiness now comes from my Essential Essence. Not from things. Or even other people. Living focused on my Essential Essence brings continual, always increasing happiness, and satisfaction. Everything I was looking for in all that accumulation and success-seeking.
I know everyone has a Reality of Origin. If traced far back enough, we all share one origin. If traced far back enough, it’s the same for all of us. My Reality of Origin changes all the time. Like my now and my future. The past is never stagnant.
Putting dominant focus on how my Broader Perspective sees life, while standing in the Moment of Becoming, I find great satisfaction. I know what is is becoming more like what I want. That awareness is happiness.
That’s essentially what life is for me now.
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It’s challenging for some and nearly impossible for others to believe beliefs create reality. Everything in physical life experience stems from a person’s thoughts. That reality is convincing. It’s easy for humans to get lost in it. Then create the illusion of separation between thoughts and created reality. Then think and believe consistent with that. That separate reality is “objectively real”, separate from thought.
Then they’re stuck (until they aren’t). They now think thoughts consistent with a separate, objective reality. All life experience is born of beliefs. So their life confirms for them a separate, objective reality.
There’s no reason that reality can’t change to another. All it takes is the same work humans put into creating the reality they have. Most aren’t ready to do the work. Even though it’s the source of incredible success, happiness and prosperity. They get what they’ve creatED and complain about that. Instead of creating what they want. And realizing the joy that comes with that.
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There are beliefs a lot of people share. Except maybe the wealthy.
The main one is: “I must trade my time and effort for money”.
I have this belief. I believe(d) that money only flows into my life experience when I do something to “earn it”. Well, I’m changing that belief. Still, momentum of that long-held belief pervades. It’s everywhere, isn’t it?
It’s like a powerful river current. Ever tried swimming against a strong river current? Making headway is impossible.
For four years I swam against the current of my beliefs about money and jobs. I refused to get a job. Instead, I believed money would come to me through my projects.
And while some money has come, it’s not yet where I want it. Money is coming through my projects. But my beliefs about money close the door on what would otherwise be an abundant flow.
It’s challenging for some and nearly impossible for others to believe beliefs create reality. Everything in physical life experience stems from a person’s thoughts. That reality is convincing. t’s easy for humans to lose themselves in it. Then create the illusion of separation from it. Then think and believe consistent with that. That reality is “objectively real”, separate from thought.
Then they’re stuck (until they aren’t). They now think thoughts consistent with a separate, objective reality. All life experience is born of beliefs. So their life confirms for them a separate, objective reality.
There’s no reason that reality can’t change to another. All it takes is the same work humans put into creating the reality they have. Most aren’t ready to do the work. Even though it’s the source of incredible success, happiness and prosperity. They get what they’ve creatED and complain about that. Instead of creating what they want. And realizing the joy that comes with that.
One day, this video showed up on my YouTube account. I know everything showing up in my life is on purpose. The message was clear. It makes more sense to have a job, a temporary one, while I allow new belief momentum to grow.
But I wasn’t going to get a job the normal way. That’s because I knew a better way was possible. Having is work for me requires remembering five key points.
Creation rarely happens in an instant.Creation doesn’t happen in a flash. It happens through steadily increasing momentum. The result I want is immediate in nonphysical, but, materialization takes a while. Also, physical reality contains more resistance than nonphysical. So materializations don’t happen here instantaneously. This illustration is helpful.
By the time I desire something it’s done. But its materialization depends on me receiving messages leading me to the doneness. If I’m not open, or in tune it gets delayed.
I know I’m ready when I’m consistently positively focused. That’s because my Experience of Origin and my Reality of Origin are pure positive energy. Being in tune means experiencing physical reality the same way I experience nonphysical reality: with as little resistance possible. Resistance is lowest when positively focused.
Looking for the result slows it down. This is important. Looking for the materialization puts energy on its absence. It adds resistance. Materializations happen quickest when I’m not looking for them.
Early signs of materialization feel like a thought interruption. I know when I’ve received the message when a thought happens that I’m not thinking. Meditation helps condition my mental atmosphere so it isn’t noisy. In that peaceful mind-state, such messages stand out from ordinary thought.
Aware of these five points I knew getting a job could be easy. I wanted to be the evidence of that. Of course, that’s what happened.
I was on my daily walking meditation. I wasn’t thinking about getting a job. I was thinking about my resistance about getting one. I didn’t want a job that would consume all my energy like professional jobs I’ve had. I wanted to be able to have capacity after work to work on my projects. I didn’t want to get up early to go to work and spend my mornings (my valuable creative time) working for someone else.
Then I caught myself. I realized I wasn’t positively focused. So I changed my thinking.
I thought instead about how it would feel to get a job matching everything I wanted. I dropped my criteria. Instead, I focused on how it would feel getting a satisfying job. One matching my current state.
I had no idea what kind of job that might be. Or how much it would pay. I was a blank slate. Fertile ground for my Inner Being.
The Inner Being that every human has knows everything that person wants. That’s because the moment the person decides they want something, it is real in nonpyhysical and part of one’s Inner Being. That’s the Experience of Origin.
The Inner Being thereafter, organizes pathways. Pathways that, if received by the person, will lead to the desire’s physical manifestation.
We know this is the way life works. It only looks different because of where humans put attention. The more they look at what they don’t want, or reasons why they don’t have what they want, the more of what they don’t want they get.
This is purposeful, as we said before. It eventually causes a turnaround. The person starts listening to their Inner Reality. Just as Perry is doing.
Matching my physical reality with my Inner Reality is the best way to hear impulses from my Inner Reality. So on my walk, I thought “how would my Inner Being feel about me having the perfect job?”
What came to me was: “triumphant, appreciative, jubilant and joyful”.
That was the message. It came out of the question. It wasn’t me thinking that thought. It’s hard to describe. Impulses are easier to feel than describe.
Next, I put attention on these emotions. Jubilance, appreciation, triumph and joy. I let them build. I felt better and better. Soon I felt great. Extreme positivity. How could I not? Jubilance, appreciation, triumph and joy feel great, right?
Then, after three minutes, it happened.
The name of the company appeared in my head. I knew it wasn’t me thinking that name because my thoughts were on the good-feelings. Besides, that company name wouldn’t have come into my head. I rarely think about it.
Nothing else followed. It came so suddenly, it surprised me. Then it was gone. I was thrilled. Fascinated. It happened just like my Inner Being said it would. Eager and excited, I continued my walk.
The view from where I sat by the river.
At the end of my walk, I sat alongside a river’s edge. I pulled out my phone and looked up this company. Was I surprised to see they were hiring?
Nope.
I applied on the spot. In an hour, I got a hire date contingent on next steps.
First I had to video record one-minute answers to three questions. Later that week, I had to pee in a cup. The proctor told me supposing no disqualifying indications, I would start on my start date.
And that’s what happened. In less than a week, I went from wondering about a job, to getting one. No resume prep. No searches. No interviews. Only a piss test.
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This job offers a lot more than soothing my old beliefs, enough income to cover all my basic needs and a little spending money. The shift I work allows ample morning time to meditate and work on my projects. The work itself is light on my mental capacity. That leaves lots of mental leeway to practice being positively focused. Lots of mental leeway to strengthen my connection with my Inner Being, Inner Reality and my Personal Trinity. It also brings new relationships and experiences. Relationships and experiences I share here.
Those relationships and experiences are divine rendezvous. Experiences letting me know I’m on my path.
When not working, I’m not working. I bring no work home like I did in my high-stress jobs of the past. That means even more focus time.
And, the work itself is energizing, physically rigorous and demanding. My 8-hour shift passes quick. I feel strong, light.
This job is one more proof point in a mountain of evidence. Evidence piled so high, I know nonphysical reality is real. I know everything my Inner Being told me and is telling me is playing out. I know all this manifesting business works.
Not because of what happens. Because of how I feel moment by moment.
In this way faith is unnecessary. Tangible evidence is overwhelming. Who needs faith in the face of so much evidence?
Trusting my connection with my Inner Reality is growing at an incredible rate. Proof begets trust. And a desire to know more.
I know I create my reality. I want to understand more deeply how that happens.
It’s thrilling thinking about what will happen next. I’m living the fascination my Inner Being says life can be. That’s why I write this blog. I know based on feedback I get that what I’m sharing inspires others.
And ultimately, that’s why I’m here. To inspire others not only to their dream job, but to their extraordinary life.
The beliefs I hold are creating my reality. I am bridging those beliefs with beliefs that create more things in my reality that I want. I know what I’m believing by looking at what my now contains. For my now reflects back to me my beliefs. My current now can be bridged to a better now. I do that by thinking thoughts into beliefs representing what I want in my now: happiness, joy, fun and things that surprise and delight me. Be sure to watch with the sound on 😀
The best result of being Positively Focused happens when people make the world the way I want it. Even complete strangers. When people show up in what seems like magical ways, I know I’m doing this whole “manifesting” business right.
The more it happens, the more I want to keep it up. I’m discovering a brand new kind of life. A life where everything I want happens with no effort.
I know. I write “effortlessly” and “no effort” a lot.
I wouldn’t use those words if they weren’t accurate.
What happened to me last week shows how through little effort people show up for me at the right time and the right place.
Last Monday, I went to a meeting at the local LGBTQIA community center. I’m getting closer to the community this way. This is the second or third meeting I’ve attended. This week, over half the people there were new. One of the people was a shy transgender woman just starting out in her transition.
When the meeting ended, she stood in the doorway as most people left. I stayed too. I was talking with another attendee and the meeting organizer. I got an impulse about this person in the doorway. It told me I would be speaking with her.
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I share a lot about how I follow my intuition. That’s because it is how my Broader Perspective tells me where to go what to do and who to talk with to get what I want.
Two things must happen to hear my intuition: first, I must learn to hear or feel the impulses. Second, I must learn to tell the difference between impulses and other voices in my head. Voices that aren’t intuition. Meditation helps a lot with that. So does practice or trial and error.
I think the main reason people don’t trust their intuition is because they haven’t practiced these two steps. So they think intuition is random at best. Or a trick of the mind at worst.
So here I was in this room. My impulse telling me to talk to this person. I wanted to talk with her. But I’m also engaged in another conversation. Not to worry, my intuition says, I’ll meet her again.
What happened next needs some context.
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I usually ride my bike to get places. Other times I ride the bus. Rarely do I go by car.
Riding the bus can be a place where perfect strangers help make the world my world. It’s all up to what I put my attention on. (Photo by the author)
There are 84 bus lines operating in the city where I live on any given day. Even if only two buses serve those lines each day, that’s almost two hundred buses moving around Portland. There’s also a street car and a light rail as well as many shuttles operating. Every day.
But there are more than two buses per line. Some lines have many more than four. There are literally hundreds of buses running around Portland at any given time.
Portland’s more than 84 lines serving the greater metro area.
Ok, that’s the context. Back to my story…
I had finished a great day at my bridging job. I felt high and happy. I wasn’t trying to make anything happen. I wasn’t even thinking about this transgender woman.
I got on the first bus of my 2-bus trip from work. I was listening to a podcast I enjoy. And I was thinking about how cool it was that I got two more informal offers for promotion at that job. And I’d only been there two weeks.
So I got off the first bus. I waited a few minutes until the second bus came. While waiting, I suddently started thinking about being transamorous. I thought about the places I might meet transgender people. I thought this way for about 10 minutes. Then, the image of that transgender woman from the meeting came into my head. Then the bus came.
It stopped in front of me. The doors opened and…you guessed it: there she was.
She wasn’t just on the bus. She was driving the bus!
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Those of you unclear about how matter, events, circumstances and people become life experience might say “Perry, you’re crazy. That’s just coincidence.”
But it’s not coincidence.
This is how everything happens. Evidence is overwhelming. When I connect to my Broader Perspective, I can control what comes into my life.
“Sarah” and I had a great conversation the whole way to where I live. I’m sure I’ll see her again. I encouraged her to come back to the meeting next month. But the fact that she drives the bus line I ride home on pretty much assures me I’ll see her either way.
No matter what I’m doing or where I am, I know the universe responds to my focus. The more I put attention on positive things, the more positive things happen in my life. (Photo by the author).
This is happening all the time in my life.
For example, this week on several occasions, incredible synchronicities happened between me and complete strangers. Since I spend a lot of the day at work, that’s where most is happening.
I drove up to one customer’s house, for example. I called her to let her know I was arriving. Most doing this job say the customer hardly ever picks up the phone. This customer answered immediately. When she came outside, she told me “it’s so strange. I had my phone in my hands when you called. I was looking right at it.”
How’s that for perfect timing?
In another example, I needed to deliver three packages in a secured apartment building. But I couldn’t get in because there was no intercom. At just that moment, a resident showed up. She let me in. I’m sure she wasn’t supposed to do that. 😀
Walking down the hall, I delivered one package. The next package too. The last package needed to be delivered in person. But the person wasn’t there. I walked back towards the elevator and this woman was coming out. I had an intuition this was the customer. I asked her if she lived in that one apartment. She asked why and I told her. Turns out, she was the customer!
Then I drove up to this house with a gate. I didn’t have the gate code. I couldn’t leave the package outside the gate. Someone would steal it. Just then, (I swear!) a woman drove up. It was the homeowner. We completed the transaction and my trainee said “that was good timing”.
Exactly, I thought.
There are so many things like good timing happening in my life. It’s happening in your life too. The more you pay attention to these the more happen. The less you pay attention to negative things happening, the less they happen.
I know it’s really about focus. Everything is happening all the time. Both positive and negative. The question is, what set of happenings are you paying attention to?
I know I have the option. I can see all the negative, discouraging, bad things happening in life. There are a lot of those things. Or I can turn my attention to all the positive, empowering, uplifting things happening in life. There are a lot of those things too.
I know whichever I put focus on is what I see the most. So it makes sense to me to pay attention to what I’m wanting to see and experience. And put no attention at all on what I don’t want to see.
So my life “trues up” to that. It gets better and better. For someone who doesn’t know this, life just looks random and coincidental. Life is not random or coincidental. Everyone creates their reality.
Are you missing out on the greatest adventure ever that is your life?
I enter heaven by feeling good, being happy and acknowledging when cool things happen in response. Cool things offered to me, by me, which tells me I have walked through the pearly gates. There, my Personal Trinity celebrates me. They celebrate my choices. Because my choices make All That Is more.
To me, heaven is not someplace I go when I die. After all, there is no such thing as death in the sense most people understand that word. Instead, heaven is a state of mind. It results as life shows me how much I am blessed. It results when I see and acknowledge all moments where my Personal Trinity showers me with what I want. I don’t see all those moments. I’m getting better at that though.
Never the less, when I do recognize every thing I want is coming to me, I get a wonderful feeling. That feeling tells me I’m connected to the best part of me. That larger part of me.
Connecting like that. That’s heaven. When I’m in that place, my world matches that state. So Earth for me becomes heavenly.
Today was that kind of day. I woke to satisfying, vivid adventures in my dream scape. After few moments of post-sleep focus, dream experiences feel as real as wake scape. I wake from my dreams feeling heavenly. I know that experience demonstrates my higher awareness kicked in. I know I can’t connect with that “other” reality so clearly if my awareness isn’t at a high level.
I did my usual morning routine. Then I meditated for 20 minutes. It was bliss. I found my center, something I love doing in meditation’s stillness. That amplified my already positive feelings. Through specific meditational processes, I re-enter the awareness state in which dreams occur. I know when I recall dreams this way while awake, I practice standing in that high awareness I’m in when dreaming. Only I’m not dreaming.
Being in that high awareness while awake is important. That state is the same unrestricted state which creates physical realities as delicious as dream state realities. Nightly dreams come for many reasons. One reason is through dream experiences, I learn how to hold that non-resistant state while awake.
This practice is how I become a master creator. I know the practice works because of what happens in dream scape. Re-presencing dreams in wake state tells me it’s working too. I also know it’s working because of how I feel. Finally, I know it’s working because of what happens in daily life.
Like what happened the rest of this day for example.
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So, feeling great, I got ready for an eight-hour shift at what I’m calling my “bridging job”.
My bridging job is what I’m doing while I sooth my beliefs about lack and scarcity. I’m replacing those with beliefs about plenty and abundance and possibility. And about not tying my financial abundance to action taken.
I know this is working because my days are getting better and better, week after week and month after month. How do I know they’re getting better? One, I keep a journal. Two, I see miracles – or rather what seem like miracles – happen more and more.
Only they’re not miracles. They’re not miracles because I know this is how life is supposed to be when I’m positively focused. Here are some of the things that happened the day I wrote this.
• A manager told me today that I am on a list of preferred employees at my “bridging job”. I’ve only been there two weeks. I know this indicates positive results of my focus. It also foretells more positive things experiences.
• My whole shift was fun and full of happy moments. I know these experiences should not be discounted. They are the stuff of what makes life heaven.
• When I checked in this morning, I was assigned a brand new, awesome Ram Van. It only had 48 miles on it. It had all the bells and whistles. My manager said don’t get attached to specific vans because we often trade vans once we get to our loading site. Today, she said we would switch as usual. But, when we got to the site, instead of switching vehicles, we moved our loads to the vehicles we already had. So I got to drive that van the whole shift. Awesome!
• Mid morning, I received an enormous indication. My trainee and I arrived at our first stop. We were looking for this one lobby where we would deliver a package for a customer, since he wasn’t home. My trainee found it. We were about to drive over there. It was quite a ways away. But just then, a guy parked right next to our van. He got out of his car. At that moment, as we were walking up to our van, I got an intuition our package belonged to this guy. The impulse to ask him was strong. So I asked him. He was the customer! So we gave him the package and avoided having to drive to the lobby. My trainee was stunned. “How did you know that was our customer?” he asked with a look on his face as though I had done some Jedi mind trick. I told him my intuition told me. I said I listen to my intuition all the time. I said I like writing about events just like this in my journal. When I do, I said, my intuition delivers more experiences just like this.
• Later, we had a package for a customer who didn’t leave us the code to get in the secured apartment lobby. As it happened, a FedEx delivery driver showed up at the front door just when we did. And, of course, he had the code. We all walked up together, chatting the whole way. It was a wonderful moment to share positive stories with each other!
I’ve written before that little things that happen that tell me bigger things are on the way. I know they are on the way, not only because of these little things that happen more often, but also because of how I feel. I know I want really big things. I also know my Personal Trinity is working behind the scenes creating my future now. A future now jam-packed with what I want.
And the more I do those things the clearer my dreams get. The clearer my dreams get, the more I match that clarity in my waking reality. The more I do that, the better my awareness becomes. And the more my awareness allows me to see little positive signs. Signs that my dreams, large and small, are becoming real.
As all thathappens I know I’m on the way to my biggest dreams of all.
It feels great being Positively Focused. I can’t think of any better way to live.
The Universe amazes me in small ways. These small ways are how I know that big things I want are coming. Because of that, I rest easy about life most of the time.
I’m getting better at making “resting easy” my full-time attitude. I know the better I get at that, the more I’ll see how much my personal trinity showers me with blessings.
Characteristic of my trinity is its recursivity. They’re like a fractal. Every part of my life, large or small, reflects that which makes up All That Is, the Universe and my Inner Being. As well as the processes used which make reality reality.
It’s why I know things always work out.
Illustration by the author
Case in point: one Thursday not too long ago. It was an amazing day. Full of epiphanies and one of three peak days that week. I’ll share the whole, fascinating story in a couple months. Things are still “unfolding” as they say.
Today I’ll tease you with one nugget.
When You Think, It Is.
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A bicycle is my primary transportation mode. Portland is bike friendly. People ride bikes year round here, even though it rains most the year. In late spring though, it’s perfect riding weather. Not too cold or hot. Not as much rain. That brings out a lot of “fair weather riders”.
Like myself.
I mean, I do ride in the rain sometimes…
Anyway, Thursday I was riding home from a couple great appointments. Downtown Portland, where the meetings were, is about six miles from where I live. I love taking this route home. It’s just long enough to get a workout, but not so long it exhausts me.
I got my bike tuned up a couple seasons ago, making a fresh tune up past due. As I rode up a hill on the way home, the gears shifted on their own, making a loud racket and causing a hitch in my bike get-along.
I thought “hmm. My bike needs a tune up.”
That’s all that happened. Something happened in physical reality. Then in my head a thought occurred.
I’ve noticed something while getting better at creating reality. If I ever-so-briefly hold an idea of what I want, then let it go, that thing I want happens fast. Usually within the day.
If I stew about what I want, if I keep thinking about it, it usually takes much longer to happen. Strange, isn’t it?
I think that happens because, in the first case, I don’t put attention on the absence of what I want. I don’t have time to think about it. The thought comes. Then goes.
So it’s a pure request. Unhindered by negative thought. I’m told that if a request is pure, it is answered immediately. Resistance is inherent to physical reality. So I don’t expect instant manifestation. Same-day manifestation is pretty quick though.
Illustration by the author
Bigger things I want, such as a huge amount of money, are taking longer only because my old beliefs slow things down. But I’m getting better about letting those beliefs subside. I’m also getting better at replacing them with ones more consistent with what I want.
Old beliefs like “I have to work a job to get money” I’m replacing with “money naturally happens in my life”. Beliefs like “it’s impossible to just have money show up like magic” I’m replacing with “everything is possible”.
How do I know this process works? Because more things are happening like what I’m sharing.
So on Thursday, when I thought about needing a bike tune up, the thought came. I thought it. Then let it go. I didn’t think about how much tune ups cost. I didn’t think about the hassle of scheduling one. I didn’t think about being without my primary (and most enjoyable) transportation.
Three quarters of a mile down the road something happened. I’m among a group of riders. We’re all heading from downtown. It’s after five. Bicycle commuters are overflowing the bike lane. It’s a normal late Portland Spring day.
Except, it’s not normal.
Three quarters of a mile past that hill where my gears puttered, there’s a guy on the road’s shoulder. He has a bike stand – one of those things you clip a bike to that suspends bikes in the air so you can work on them. He’s in shorts, t-shirt and blue latex gloves. At his ankles is a sign. It reads something like “Get bike advice”.
I ride past him.
In the 12 + years I’ve taken this route home, never have I seen this guy. Yet, here he is. On this day. Passing him, I get an intuition to turn back. It’s a strong one.
My Inner Being has written in this blog about “intuitions” and “impulses”. They say these are communications from them. Urgings which, if followed, lead me towards what I’m wanting. So many times over the years, following their urgings resulted in surprising and delightful encounters. Encounters with people. Encounters with circumstances and events which, like they promise, end with me getting what I want.
So when I rode past Dan (his real name), my intuition pinged. Hard. I couldn’t resist turning back.
Of course, I’m not always great at following my intuitive impulses. Sometimes I miss them. Sometimes I hear them, then don’t follow them. Lately, my Inner Being has been urging me about getting better at immediately following these impulses.
Given ambitions I have, I know they’re helping me get better at this. They know doing so will get me what I want even faster than it happens today. Which already is pretty fast. This story is a great example. In fact, the whole week overflowed with poignant results. Results you just can’t make up!
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About half a mile past Dan, I decided to turn back. When I returned, I asked Dan if he would be willing to tune my gears up. And if so, how much he’d charge me.
“Yes I can tune them,” he said. “I’ll also show you how to do it. And, I’m not wanting any money. I’m doing this to help riders. That’s all.”
That’s all? Wow, I thought. That’s AWESOME.
When he said that, I knew this was the Universe responding to my “request”. After the week I was having. After the day I was having, how could it not be?
Only after hearing Dan say this did I realize a couple things. One, I was willing to pay a bike shop like $100 to get my bike tuned up. Two, I also thought about looking on YouTube to learn how to do it myself. My Inner Being knew all this, and here they delivered an “in-person YouTube” lesson!
And you know what? Tuning up bike gears is easy!
Dan showed me how to do it. It took a minute or less. I shook my head. To think I was willing to pay someone almost $100 for a minute’s work when the Universe organized it at no cost!
My ride home after that felt like floating on a cloud. I was on a natural high.
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It’s these demonstrations which tell me I’m connected to my personal warehouse of blessings. That and how I feel on the daily. I’m feeling happier and happier the more I maintain positive focus. My Inner Being tells me there’s no upper limit how happy I can get. I think that’s so cool.
The more happy I get, the more my personal trinity, in small and large ways, shows me that life is easy. It shows me I can relax in my blessedness.
It’s these small events, happening more and more these days, which tell me my bigger desires are on their way too.
For me, manifestation is great. But manifestations are the spice which make the main event tasty. The main event, where I put most of my attention these days, is how great I feel. I feel great knowing the Universe not only has my back, it’s got my entire life in its hands.
I enjoy seeing little things happening in my life. These little jewels along my journey are how I know big things are happening too.
Big things like seeing my creations appreciated by many. Or getting notes from people saying my expression benefits them.
I know a happy life comprises many happy-life moments. But happy moments don’t make me happy. I get happy first. Then happy moments happen.
Yesterday a little thing happened. It would have amazed me had not so many of these kinds of things happened before. Instead, it confirmed what I already know: I’m on my path. Life is a joyride. I create my reality. And these kinds of things happen all the time.
I’m sharing this because sharing is part of how I appreciate what I know.
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I had a wonderful brunch with a long-time friend and his partner. It’s timely because I am appreciating more these days my own queerness as a trans-attracted person. It wasn’t missed on me that all this embracing who I am is happening right around Pride Month.
Nor is it surprising that my life is changing in big ways. These changes too prove appreciation creates an awesome life. An awesome life on every level. Life tunes up to one’s heightened positivity. The more optimistic I get, the greater my life gets.
After a wonderful time with Kyle and “Josh”, I hopped on my bike. I headed to a secluded spot along Portland’s Willamette River. According to their schedule, Navy ships visiting Portland would be leaving in the hour. This secluded spot would be perfect to see them.
An hour passed. No ships.
But what did happen was way more satisfying.
A section of the winding, bumpy downhill road. Where it all happened. (Photo by the author)
On my way to the riverside, I rode down this very steep, very bumpy road. It runs about a mile from the University of Portland down to the river’s edge. I can’t over stress how unmaintained it is. Ruts, potholes separated asphalt, weeds and dirt make that downhill run challenging.
It also rattles the hell out of me and my bike.
I usually ride with ear buds, listening to a podcast or music. This day was no different. two-thirds down the hill, my bike started making a huge racket. So loud I heard it over the podcast.
I got to the bottom of the hill. Then checked my bike. Turns out a fender fastener fell off. The two free parts rattled together as the fender vibrated with every bump.
I had trouble with this before. I tightened it “finger tight” back then. “Finger tight” was not enough apparently.
Ugh! What’s That Noise?
Noises bug me. Whether a squeaky dashboard on a car, or an annoying rattle on my bike, I’d prefer they not happen. So when this racket started, I got annoyed.
But only for a sliver of a split second!
Instead of complaining about the noise, dreading havinglost that fastener or worrying that I wouldn’t find it, I stayed neutral. No negativity! That’s my moment-by-moment mantra these days.
An hour later, when I had enough fun at the river, I hopped on my bike. Funny thing was, I had so much fun on the river, I forgot about the missing fastener until just then.
Instead of riding back with that annoying rattle, I found a piece of string on the beach. I used it to “MacGyver” the two metal pieces, so they wouldn’t rattle. I figured I’d ride to the bike shop. They’d probably have a replacement.
Check out those MacGyver skills!
But then my Inner Being offered a different approach: why not meet with the piece that fell off?
My first thought was “forget it. It’s lost. I’ll never find it on that bumpy road. It could have tumbled off the road into the weeds. I was going so fast.”
Jeez. Reading that, I sound like Luke Skywalker in Star Wars:
[Luke sees his X-wing is about to sink into the bog]
Luke: Oh, no! We’ll never get it out now!
Yoda: So certain, are you? Always with you, what cannot be done. Hear you nothing that I say?
Luke: Master, moving stones around is one thing, but this is… totally different!
Yoda: No! No different! Only different in your mind. You must unlearn what you have learned.
Luke: All right, I’ll give it a try.
Yoda: No! Try not. Do… or do not. There is no try. [Luke tries to use the Force to levitate his X-Wing out of the bog, but fails in his attempt.]
Luke: I can’t. It’s too big.
Yoda: Size matters not. Look at me. Judge me by my size, do you? Hmm? Hmm. And well you should not. For my ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is. Life creates it, makes it grow. Its energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter. You must feel the Force around you; here, between you, me, the tree, the rock, everywhere, yes. Even between the land and the ship.
Luke: You want the impossible. [sees Yoda use the Force to levitate the X-wing out of the bog and gets flustered when he does it] I don’t… I don’t believe it!
Yoda: That is why you fail.
So for a split second i entertained disbelief. But I caught those thoughts early. I replaced them with more positive thoughts: “I’ll find it.” “This might be an adventure!” “What if I find it?” And “My Inner Being and intuition will lead me to it.”
That’s all I thought. Thinking those thoughts I felt optimistic.
I got on my bike and rode up that steep, bumpy road. I didn’t try to find the fastener. I just rode slowly, enjoying the climb.
That’s when I started weaving back and forth up the road. I didn’t do it on purpose. I was having fun. The fastener was not in my mind.
Then, I happened to look to the right and down…
And there it was!
See it?
Think of this! I careened down that steep, bumpy, road. It was a mile long. That tiny fastener could have fallen anywhere. In a pothole, a shaded spot, in a rut, into the weeds alongside the road.
It’s right there…..
It was a literal metaphorical needle in a mile-long haystack.
Yet, here it was. And I rode right to it.
How cool is that?
There it is!
Life Is Full Of Happy Events When You’re Happy
I didn’t share this earlier, but there was another big co-inciding about that brunch. I’ll share it now.
I know I am a “lightworker”. I came here to uplift humankind during this time of huge change. That’s why I have these creative abilities. I want my creative expression to serve that purpose. I know as it does, I will become more successful.
Several weeks ago, I was day dreaming. Day dreaming is a great way to visualize what I want. So long as I don’t energize the absence of what I want.
The lifestyle I’m visioning includes having a private chef as part of my household staff.
I know that getting what I want is inevitable. On the way to all that, my personal trinity gets involved. It sends me little co-inciding events letting me know what I want is becoming my reality.
My “Personal Trinity”: All That Is, my Inner Being and the Universe. All working together coordinating my emerging reality.
Remember that breakfast with Kyle and his partner?
Well his partner is an executive chef. He loves cooking. And, not long ago, he was the personal chef to the billionaire wife of a major motion picture company! Motion pictures. How’s that for success through creativity?
Now picture this: here I was sitting across the table from the personal chef of a super-successful creative person. A billionaire!
Coincidence? I say providence. Josh was so gracious. He shared his experiences as a personal chef to a billionaire, the highs and the lows of it, how it works, and what she paid him.
It was an excellent opportunity. I savored that conversation. I knew it was a breadcrumb on the way to my emerging success.
The process by which I create reality. With a lot of help from my “Personal Trinity.”
There are lots of things happening in my life showing how what I’m doing spiritually shapes my now. My future too.
The same thing is happening in your life.
I know doing my part means being happy. Being easy about my life. Appreciating as much as I can. The more I have done that over the years, the more my experience includes events like the two I’m sharing.
And there’s more coming. It’s what life is about.
Life for me is not about the big dreams materializing. Although that’s part of the path.
For me, the main event of the path is the path. Learning to recognize and appreciate the jewels along the journey.
The key to recognizing them is being positively focused as much as I can. Then watching as my Personal Trinity surprises and delights me.
