How Dis-ease Leads To Enlightenment

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While on a walk the other day, I gathered and ate fruit offering itself along my walking path. Every bite tantalized my tastebuds. Halfway through, it hit me: Earth’s abundance abounds. Everywhere I look, something shows how reality showers us with everything.

I decided I’d share my epiphany in a Facebook photo album I created while on the walk. The next day, two, then three rashes appeared on my body. One under my left arm, another on my abdomen and a third on my lower left flank.

This happened before, years ago, while walking. I plucked and ate plums from a tree in my neighborhood, then, hours later developed rashes under my left arm and lower left flank.

Back then I attributed the rash to a plum allergy.

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Some of the fruit I found on my walk…yum!

Now I know better…

I haven’t had health insurance in three years. I stopped seeing doctors and paying healthcare premiums because I knew by then my well being wasn’t up to “modern medicine”.

If I create my reality though my beliefs, I concluded, “reality” must include the most intimate of my reality – my body – as well, since it, like everything around me, is physical.

Proving to myself “thoughts create reality” requires an “all in” mentality. I can’t believe I create my reality and still buy health insurance. That would mean I don’t really believe I create my reality. 😊

When I got clear in my head that doctors and diagnoses weren’t necessary, that a positive focus and beliefs consistent with that would be all the “healthcare” I needed, I stopped buying healthcare.

Since then I’ve never been sick. No colds, no injuries…not even a sniffle.

When these rashes happened, I figured their origin wasn’t in the fruit. It had to be in my thoughts and beliefs. I thought about what I thought about on my walk. It took a while, using the process through which I recall dreams: rather than trying to find the thoughts, which is near impossible, I opened my mind and tuned myself such that those previous thoughts came back to me like a radio signal.

What I found was surprising…

I wasn’t very positive on my walk! I realized while enjoying these luscious bountiful, juicy fruits, I also was thinking about what people thought as they saw me doing that. Here’s what I thought:

  • People are watching me and disapproving
  • People are going to think I’m homeless, that I eat fruit off these trees because I can’t afford do get food from the store
  • People are going to think I live on the street in a tent somewehre
  • Eating this free food is wrong. I should be buying food from a grocery store (!)
  • Food isn’t free (!)
  • This is not food (!)

Can you believe that? Forget the fact that, while I walked over seven miles I didn’t see a single person looking at me. Thinking food nature gives freely is somehow not food, and that eating directly from nature means you’re homeless is just plain ridiculous!

For a moment I thought “where the fuck did I get these kinds of thoughts/beliefs?” The answer came when I went down a long old road, into my youth…until I realized I didn’t need any explanation. All I needed: new beliefs.

Later that day, I remembered a post I recently wrote about everything one experiences being positive. I knew this belief discovery and these rashes indicated something good. So I looked anew at my old beliefs and my new rashes.

Maybe the rashes meant something else, thought. Maybe they pointed to these old beliefs on purpose. Maybe too they mean something more, something when uncovered, would cause greater expansion…an increased self awareness that creates greater Inner Being connection.

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Here’s what happened next

A few hours later, these rashes really started itching. Just before bedtime I started scratching and scratching…like a dog with fleas…until I fell asleep.

Waking the next morning, as I usually do, I recalled my dreams using my dream recall and analysis process. That’s when it struck me: I wasn’t scratching. I wasn’t even itching. In fact, I couldn’t even feel the rashes.

Then, the moment I thought those thoughts, my rashes started itching.

My real discovery started then. It’s hard to put this in words because what happened happened at a level beyond words. I’ll try to explain…

I found a way to tune my awareness to a vibration where I perceived my reality in a certain way, such that, the rashes disappeared. When I tune there, even now, I don’t sense the rashes. It’s like I’m in an alternate reality where they don’t exist.

I’m still learning, so I go in and out. Some hours I have no rash. Then, for a few moments I’m scratching. This morning I woke to the same experience. It’s been a few days, almost a week, and I’m better at this tuning…and I notice when I tune there, not only do the rashes disappear in my awareness, I also find my awareness “broaden” so that I can feel potential…

Potential what?

Potential inherent in my desires…things I want I know are coming when I focus there, but for now they remain invisible to the eye. When I tune there, I feel joyful, peaceful, a sense of freedom and a clear knowing that everything I want is not only on the way, I can see evidence of it as it unfolds..

This is the positive aspect of this whole rash situation: it clarified negative beliefs I had lurking around just beneath my awareness. But more important, these rashes were a communication from my Inner Being, a path of least resistance to me getting that a new frequency exists allowing perception of my now and my emerging nows, those future moments containing some of my biggest desires.

As you can imagine, I’m practicing this tuning even more. I’m also excited to share this practice with my clients. But I’m going to refine my ability with it before I share so when I do, I can share the entire story.

It’s going to be good. I know that because it already is!

The entire experience reminded me how irrelevant others’ opinions are. When I include them in my awareness they activate old beliefs that no longer serve me. Doing that brings dis-ease. But manifested dis-ease is beneficial. Looking underneath superficial manifestations reveals rich information. Such insights will lead to wondrous new perspectives, if I’m willing to take the plunge.

Sometimes I’m not. I’m glad I was this time.

Dream-Reality Paradox

Sharing this entry from my journal as it may benefit others.

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I’m on a walk. I was listening to a podcast when dreams I had this morning again flowed into my awareness as they do in sleep state, only I’m awake and walking.

^^the path along my walk

My brain is not a filing cabinet. It does not house “memories” in tidy, organized compartments within and among its folds. Rather, it is a frequency transmitter/receiver (as are other organs) sending and receiving signals controlled and emitted by nonphysical sense organs. Sense organs correspond to physical senses. Everyone uses these chaotically in dreams. Most are unaware of them during wake state.

These nonphysical senses are imperceptible when I focus exclusively on physical existence, yet I can deliberately, more and more control these in sleep state and wake state as I practice being Positively Focused. All this I know, not theoretically, but empirically.

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I know then these delicious, ecstatic and lucid images and sounds and feelings, returning to my awareness while waking and walking, mean that on my walk I tapped into frequencies matching dream state frequencies.

Their arrival also means my Positively Focused practice pays off: I dream even while walking, meaning, my awareness simultaneously perceives in wake state and dreamscape. No small feat indeed.

The first images returning feature a tumultuous sea restrained and yet cooperating with a sea wall. As I focus here, now on these images, by virtue of my practice, many other dream scenes now flow/return to my awareness.  Waves of magnificent and infinite amplitude and power crash against these walls. Yet, despite the appearance of conflicting purposes — the sea’s desire to vanquish and thus overflow the wall, the wall’s desire to hold back the sea — the feeling tone of their combined energies is harmony of purpose, joyful energy sharing and mutual acknowledgement of one another’s role in the collective representation of that which my Inner Being is using to communicate with me, the wake state version of my Inner Being awareness.

That’s worth reading a second time. 😌

But wait…there’s more…

Recognizing this, waves of appreciation and joy sweep over me…not unlike these dream waves…overcoming resistance that once was my total exclusive focus in physical reality. For there once was a time when I didn’t know for certain, as I do now, nonphysical’s existence, nor was I, back then, aware I dreamt.

With that certainty now flows what’s known as “the secrets of the Universe”, known as that only because so few take time to find them.

Through these secrets I draw to me dream interpretation clarity:

  • The tumultuous sea represents massive changes underway in the broader context.
  • The massiveness of the waves and their power represent the intensity of my focus and my intention that Great Good result from all this (which is what’s happening).
  • The wall represents humanity’s resistance to the change.
  • The cooperative nature of both represent cocreation of a future bringing tectonic shifts in some humans, and my own awareness, which must equal identical shifts in my reality and collective reality.

Indeed, my perspective in this dream is not that of standing on the sea wall, nor on the tumultuous sea. Rather it is above both. A “God’s eye” view. That positioning too coordinates and cooperates with both wall and sea, meaning, I am both and more.

^^Trees and grass, roots and soil

Writing that sends shivers down my spine right now, indicating at the same time the accuracy of my interpretation and my Inner Being’s exaltation in my extraordinary clarity.

Oh how I stand in the now, focused on trees and grass, roots and soil, leaves and sky, eager and joyful knowing, not by faith, but by the clarity of my life experience, that everything is working out, that I am blessed, as all are, and that I am the center of the Universe, God in human form.

^^…leaves and sky

And that is why I encourage and practice being positively deranged through a Positively Focused practice. It feels so good. And feeling good brings delight, insight as well as real life experiences matching that.

Waking in bliss

Mornings are joyous moments when I’m living in between two states that actually are one: dream life and walking life. I enjoy feeling wonderful and pleasure about both. I enjoy seeing how each informs the other. It’s beautiful feeling pleasure in both: coming out of dream state in ecstasy, moving into wake state in eager anticipation, knowing both contribute unique aspect that taken together form thrilling, joyous awareness of All That Is’ perfection as it constantly expands into more.

What Joy to be alive. What joy to be. What joy.

I See God (Myself) Everywhere

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Evidence that God exists is so abundant, I wonder sometimes why humans invented this thing called faith.

A great post landed in my inbox this week about how to create results. Joe Dalio’s writings blend Law of Attraction with Christianity which is an interesting perspective given so many Christians have negative attachment to Law of Attraction.

Joe’s post moved me, so I wrote a response:

I find that when one understands what is being shared by Great Teachers, faith becomes unnecessary, because evidence of “answered prayers” abounds. Faith becomes necessary in the absence of evidence. Since evidence abounds, faith isn’t necessary. So then, how does one see evidence?

It’s challenging sharing uplifting knowledge because such information is best shared through long conversations. But your bottom line is spot on: the external world springs from the internal one. Get the latter right and the former must match the latter so long as the former, righted, is held consistently, even in the perceived absence of evidence…

That brings me back to faith. The external, physical world as it is now, evidences everyone’s beliefs as they are now. As you say, “When your…mind believes something to be true, then it is, and you will soon experience its truth.” All around us we find confirmed beliefs…our truths. The matter is one of seeing beliefs and their [already] manifested realities.

So believing in “the word” as creator of reality becomes easy once one sees connections between what they believe and what they experience. God is all around us, in us and in everything, constantly evolving, constantly become more. I love knowing that and relish life while standing in that knowing!

Joe replied few minutes later. I’ll get to what happened next.

How prayer works

A client and I talked about prayer recently. He’s a Christian, and prays often. I suggested a different perspective on prayer, one that could make prayer more effective.

Life works best like this, I told him: A person find things they want, often by observing things they don’t want. The moment they recognize what they want, what Christians call God holds that as a real, tangible experience, especially for that person.

That’s what happens when a person prays. They identify what they want and immediately get the answer (God holding the future reality for the person). But the praying part of “prayer” is only the beginning.

Next, God sends signals – thoughts, ideas, intuition to the one who has prayed. Follow those signals and the person MUST receive that for which they prayed.  God sends signals constantly for every prayer potentially leading the person to everything they want. All prayers are answered.

Like a pair of walkie talkies though, the person can’t receive God’s signals, and thus His answer to the prayer, if the person isn’t on His frequency. How do they know when they are?

They feel good, they’re positively focused, they see everything like God does: as good, as right, as always getting better.

So prayer isn’t about what one says with one’s mouth in solemn moments, I told my client. Prayer happens every life moment, with every interpretation, every story, every belief a person believes about everything happening around them moment by moment.

Tuning one’s interpretation so they receive God’s answer is what Jesus meant when he said become like a child, which means, seeing the world as a pure, positive adventure springing from one’s imagination.

God’s revelation

I saw this blog post I mentioned above as a positive element of my ongoing adventure. I enjoyed responding and receiving the Joe’s reply:

Thank you for your excellent comment! You’ve added so much more wisdom to the info I discussed. Your last paragraph sums it up beautifully. I believe the key is seeing and knowing those connections, though it’s easier said than done. However when done, it is life-changing 🙂

The next day, I ran an errand to IKEA. On my way, I thought about Joe’s post, my response, and his reply. I thought about how Joe keyed in on the key point: Seeing the connections between what one believes, and what one experiences…that’s how one finds God and His revelations: answers to one’s prayers.

Right about that time, I passed by a house with a beautiful painting nailed to a post in the front yard. The painting featured a huge yellow and black honey bee free-framed in a blue sky with white clouds. A short paragraph beside the bee, told in hand-painted letters  how important bees are.

Below that was a long, hand written message:

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This was exactly the connection I described in my comment. Here I was, in my physical reality, seeing my own beliefs reflected back to me. God’s answer to one of my many “prayers” – my strong belief.

Joy and recognition washed over me. The rest of my ride felt like floating. When I got to IKEA, a masked clerk greeted me at the door.

“How are you today?” She asked.

“I’m f*cking happy!” I exclaimed.

“Wow!” She said. “That’s AWESOME.”

I smiled so wide underneath my mask, my eyes twinkled.

“It sure is!” I said.

Evidence that God exists is so abundant, I wonder sometimes why humans invented this thing called faith. I don’t need faith because I know I’m God in Human form, laying out my desires in prayer then tuning myself so I get my answers in life experience. The tuning looks and feels like being Positively Focused. And being there, I find happiness.

The Great Pause IS Good

Beauty in nature will persist no matter how obscure human eyes become. Sometimes though, human eyes get clear. The Great Pause IS good. Can you see it? In the future humanity will look back at this time as a great opportunity. Why not see it that way now? Some people do, like those who took time to share their experiences and their memories.

I Put God To The Test. Here’s What Happened.

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It’s fun putting God to the test and watching God exceed my test expectations. That’s what happened this morning on my walk.

I know I am God in a human body. Don’t freak out reading that. Everyone is God in human bodies.

Sometimes it’s nice testing my godhood. It’s fun, and it assures me my desires are flowing easily into my life experience. Evidence abounds in that regard, but, every so often creating an event immediately tells me, yup! I’m doing it, I’m creating my reality.

The challenge with creating reality and the reason so many try this “manifestation business” and fail, is because specificity and focus are important. People who fail at creation don’t realize their “failure” actually is success. Here’s why.

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Every human being is a God in human form, creating reality through their interaction with it. Conscious creation is more joyful…for obvious reasons. Putting God to the test is fun too. Especially when I delight myself by exceeding my expectations.

If I want something really bad, that’s great, so long as I’m focused on what it is I want. It’s easy, though, in my focus on what I want, to instead focus on the opposite of what I want, which is the absence of what I want, or what I already have.

For example, say I want a new relationship and I’m in a relationship I don’t like. If I focus on all the things I don’t like about the relationship I have, and focusing there, I ask for a new relationship, I’m not going to manifest a new relationship. Instead, I’m going to manifest more of what I have: the relationship I’ve got.

I know I must turn my focus to what I want, not what I’ve got. I know I’ve done that by using my emotions as my guide. I know I’m getting what I want when I feel great in the now, the Moment of Becoming.

The Universe will deliver the essence of everything I ask for. Testing this assertion helps calibrate my focus so I know when I’m focusing on what I want instead of what I don’t. It’s a fun way of refining that important skill.

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I know thinking thoughts that feel good makes getting what I want easy.

So that’s what I did this morning. I like testing God (that’s me) by using subjects I don’t have lots of desire about. It’s easier focusing when there isn’t a lot of momentum behind the desire itself. Here’s what I did:

I said I wanted to see a rabbit on my walk somewhere. I live in an urban neighborhood in Portland, Oregon. Houses and apartments and paved streets and alleys define my neighborhood. There aren’t a lot of wooded areas, so seeing a wild rabbit would be amazing. But I knew I can manifest anything I want if my desire is strong enough and, most importantly, my resistance to the desire is weak or non existent.

I focused on how it would feel seeing a rabbit. I held that image for a little over a minute, to get the creative momentum moving. In my imagination I saw the rabbit’s brown fur, its black eyes….I thought about petting the rabbit and how soft it would feel so long as it didn’t bite me 😂. That made me feel happy, a crucial indicator.

I’m clear All That Is delivers the essence of what ask. I know that often means delights beyond my specific ask. So it’s better asking generally rather than specifically because what comes can be missed if I’m too specific about what I want. So while I asked for a rabbit, what I focused on was the fur, the eyes and how it would feel to see something like that in my city.

Then I dropped it. I paid no attention to my request. I enjoyed my walk, the city, the morning air, the flowers and other people out walking.

It was a nearly four mile walk. Returning to the house where I live, I turned a corner one block from home and…not 20 feet in front of me….was a coyote. It looked at me with black eyes…and it had brown fur.

A Coyote a few steps right in front of me! In the middle of town!

Before I could snap a picture with my phone, it ran off around the corner, but as I got to the end of the block, it came running back around the corner. That’s when I got a video of her!


God passed! What a demonstration!

I know I am God in a physical body. I know I create reality through my interaction with it. My thoughts and emotions tell me what creations I’m creating. I share my experiences through this blog because the sharing is fun, but also to encourage others into their full creative potential so they can have as much fun as I’m having.

It really is fun creating reality. I love putting God to the test and then seeing how I exceed my own expectations.