A Full Positively Focused Session: What Happy Looks Like

I’m overjoyed sharing this video and appreciate deeply my client’s willingness to share it with you too.

It’s deeply touching watching what happens in this full, lightly edited session. I knew when we had it, it offered extraordinary insight into how becoming Positively Focused works.

As my client gets near the end of the session, you can see how deeply the work transformed his perspective.

A session anatomy

The client came after spending the week perpetually in negative beliefs. As such, he characterized the week as negative, sharing only those experiences he had access to – those vibrating at his lower level – as “proof” substantiating his feeling experience.

Of course, life works the other way around. One’s feeling experience creates life experience. It’s something few know.

Showing up the way he did, the client offered himself a wonderful opportunity. By practicing shifting his perspective towards better-feeling beliefs, he discovered renewed freedom.

Then, positive experiences he had during the same week, ones he didn’t mention, returned to his memory. That happened because he resonated with those through his improved, active beliefs, instead of the lower vibrational experiences with which he originally resonated. In doing so his mood changed completely.

This session illustrates so many powerful insights, the most important being: Reality springs from perception. Changing perception produces instant results. In time, those results turn into perceivable reality.

The beliefs I have create the world I see. Not the other way around.

What reality resonates?

The reality one experiences is the one with which they resonate. Life’s harmonics will draw to a person, experiences from the infinite, matching that person’s vibration. He can access no other realities, even though they’re just as real. One’s experience therefore rests completely with how one vibrates.

Every reality exists simultaneously. By shifting one’s vibration upwards, through simple declarative statements, one finds oneself transported to totally different versions of the exact same reality they experience. Only details change because the higher vibration draws details matching the observer.

I love this work. I love showing people how raising their vibration puts them on track to everything they want.

But most fulfilling is the jubilance feel when I see significant positive shifts in people’s vibration – this happens at 00:35:39 in the video – then they feel that shift. That’s the payoff of the work for both me and the client. That and the client realizing their Charmed Life, of course.

We’re all eternal. Manifestations are a dime a dozen. They’re sign posts along a never ending path of personal fulfillment and joy. Life’s purpose therefore doesn’t rest in manifestations.

Life’s purpose fulfills itself in wonderful, delicious, rambunctious feelings birthed from knowing you’re at the center of the Universe. You’re eternal, God in human form. Nothing beats that, as my client here shows.

Enjoy.

When Great Good Results From A Bee’s Stinger

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A bee stung me this morning. It hurt. Then I got Positively Focused about it and in that moment onward, the bee sting showed a new perspective on my enlightenment.

I typically walk several miles each day. Lately here in Portland, summer temperatures peak at over 110 degrees. So rather than afternoon walks, I walk in the mornings now.

The day I’m writing this though, the mercury showed the day already hot: 80 degrees at 7:30 a.m. with the expected high well over 100. I thought a walk now beats walking on broiling sidewalks. So off I went.

The day shaping up hot with more scorching days ahead!

I walked several circles around one of my favorite parks, then headed 1.2 miles towards another park nearby. This walk nets nearly 4 miles. Good enough for a blistering summer day. I figured after that walk, I’d stay indoors. Like I did through the weekends triple-digit days.

How walks become dreams

When walking these days, especially in the morning, I focus on my Broader Perspective focus. I bring an awareness greater than my ordinary daily awareness to my walks. Doing that, I enter dream state while awake.

It’s an advanced practice I do more of these days. I do it because I know bliss I feel while dreaming represents maximum connection with my broader perspective. After all, as my body sleeps, I know I’m not in my body.

Instead, I’m out of my body experiencing my state of origin. That feeling state matches exactly what my Broader Perspective feels. That’s why it feels so good.

I also know when I practice that feeling while awake, I tune me to that Broader Perspective awareness, which determines how swiftly and easily fulfilled desires show themselves to me.

So practicing bliss while awake makes visible manifestations I otherwise would not see.

Halfway to that next park, I felt a burning sensation on my right leg. It grew in intensity even while I practiced blissful focus. When I looked down, I saw a yellow jacket stuck to my inside calf. It hung there off my calf by its stinger, which was impaled in my leg.

Had I been more present, I’d have snapped a picture. Instead, I smacked the insect off my leg, bent down and searched for the stinger. Thankfully it fell off with the yellow jacket. But the stinging sensation remained.

What happened next amazed me

Instead of wincing in pain, I continued practicing my focus. It didn’t occur to me that I should feel pain, limp or rub the spot where the insect injected its venom. I just naturally thought the sting offered greater focus opportunity. 🤔

Hard to see. I shot this a few moments after getting stung. Maybe you can see the redness (inside the yellow circle).

“I wonder if I could focus myself out of the pain of this sting,” I thought.

So that’s what I did. I heightened my focus on bliss. As I did that, something cool happened.

I didn’t feel the sting!

But the very next microsecond I felt the pain again. So I focused more intently again…and the pain disappeared. But half a second later it came back!

What happened here?

Two things I noticed. One, my focus constantly creates my reality. I mean every millisecond, I either focus where I want, or my focus runs on autopilot. When I focus, say, on bliss and Broader Perspective as per my exercise, I create a reality where pain factors not.

But because focus is literally millisecond by millisecond, I go in and out of that blissful focus.

A natural result of my focus

Months ago I knew I wanted a focus so intent and so aligned with Broader Perspective that I would ongoingly experience as my waking consciousness, what my Broader Perspective knows. Holding that intent, I knew, created a future probable reality experience-able by me. But only if I lined up with that.

This bee sting prompted awareness intensity needed to make my intent my reality. I practiced that intense awareness for a good hour, tuning focus so pain disappeared, then noticing it come rushing back when my focus waned.

I couldn’t hold that intense bliss-focus long. But my desire for that focus level welled up from me like a baby spurting out a vagina: undeniable.

I wanted more focus intensity and I knew this experience, because it birthed this desire, also created a reality wherein I have that focus intensity where pain factors not.

So now, my intent involves “being” that focus intensity, feeling how it feels were I there all the time. Doing that consistently enough will, in time, cause a rendezvous between me and that future wherein I have that focus intensity all the time. That’s just how being Positively Focused works!

In other words, that future I created is a done deal, standing by as my future now experience the moment I tune to it.

I love how a freaking yellow jacket sting created more desire in me for greater focus, as well as a new knowing of the extent to which I can create reality.

Now it’s time to line up with that future I created. That’s the wonder of the Charmed Life: creating what I consider an idealized life, then gradually finding myself living more and more of that.

30 Questions To Better Happy, Love and Joy

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Being Positively Focused recognizes Universe’s inherent goodness, its desire to give everyone everything they want. That focus, well-practiced, creates the Charmed Life I talk about in this blog.

What does the Positively Focused philosophy involve? My friend Gheric described it in 30 excellent questions I’ll share shortly.

Life is fun when yes is the default

The Positively Focused philosophy emphatically says “yes” in response to every question. So if a person answers “no” to any question, then a gap exists between what that person wants and what they’re getting.

A simple agreement is not enough. Self-fulfilling desires happen only when someone knows the answers are all “yes”, not just agrees with the answers.

That’s because knowing, believing and thinking are distinct states. Everyone thinks. That’s the default. Think long enough about something and reality serves evidence of what one thinks about. The thinker sees this evidence, then gradually understands this evidence as proving their thought “true”.

Then the person believes what they think. Why wouldn’t they? Reality “proved” what they think. Therefore that person’s thoughts become their beliefs.

Given enough time beliefs recede as evidence replaces “belief” and the “belief” becomes “true”. At that point, the person no longer believes. They know.

So knowing “yes” as the answer requires seeing evidence everywhere.

Life’s road is easier when the answers to these 30 questions is “yes”.

The 30 questions

These questions challenge many people’s beliefs. They also challenge many people’s realities. Both get challenged because one (reality) springs from the other (beliefs). A person who doesn’t know this finds answering “yes” to every question very difficult if not impossible.

The joy inherent in knowing the answer is “yes” is what life is all about. Living lives where everything comes easily depends on it. Therefore, these questions and their answer are important prerequisite to a Charmed Life.

And now, the questions:

  1. Does abundance in all things exist?
  2. Does well-being flow through all things? 
  3. Is evil an illusion?
  4. Is scarcity an illusion?
  5. Is control an illusion?
  6. Do all circumstances work out for good? 
  7. Are negative beliefs a catalyst for positive growth?
  8. Does everyone want a better reality?
  9. Do we create our own reality?
  10. Is everyone free?
  11. Is progress an inevitability?
  12. Can everyone have what they want?
  13. Are all paradoxes resolvable?
  14. Are the specific values of the individual aligned with the general values of the collective?
  15. Are all conflicts illusory?
  16. Is every perspective valid?
  17. Is every perspective valuable? 
  18. Are humans inherently good? 
  19. Can humans be trusted?
  20. Do humans want to be free from control/manipulation?
  21. Do humans want well-being for themselves and for others?
  22. Is humanity currently headed in a positive direction?
  23. Do people want to live by their intrinsic motivations? 
  24. Do intrinsic motivations always lead to good things?
  25. Is it okay to give up on something?
  26. Does everyone have good intentions?
  27. Can efficient and effective organizing structures emerge organically?
  28. Does everything evolve?
  29. Can “bad ideas” turn into “good ideas”?
  30. Is it inevitable that every “bad idea” evolves into a “good idea” given enough allowance for intuitive inspiration?

Finding this a challenge?

If you’re having trouble, you’re not alone. But you can discover bliss in human being-ness by learning to see, then living from, what’s possible when you know every answer is “yes”.

That’s what my clients find. And when they do, they become Positively Focused. Then life gets fun.

After all, who wouldn’t want a life full of desires fulfilling themselves? That’s what everyone in a physical body knew life could be like before they came here.

But many get stuck once they get here. That’s because they don’t remember what they forgot, the forgetting of which is a prerequisite to arrival. No need stay in forgetting mode though.

You can remember. Everyone can. If you aren’t, I can help.

The Love Life Shows Me Every Day

This is a positively focused series called “journal entries” for when I experience something I write about in my journal I think others might benefit from reading. This is a continuation of that series.

From my journal – Thursday, Apr. 15, 2021

I love being on my freedom adventure

I love finding what I like, attending to it, then watching it reveal itself to me. I like soothing resistance so what I like reveals more of itself to me. I like pointing out what I want, seeing Universe shape to that, then seeing that show itself to me.

I like when it happens in dreams. I like when it happens in wake state. When it happens in wake state I like it even more. Wake state realization feels great. Dream state feels best though. I know that’s because little resistance happens when I’m there, but I also know I can enjoy dream state feelings in wake state to the degree I soothe my resistance….particularly resistance I have about resistance.

Life affirms me and my desires

I like so many things showing themselves to me. I appreciate appreciating that. Seeing those things tells me I’m succeeding at lowering my resistance. That feels good knowing that.

But it’s even better-feeling seeing results of lowered resistance. In lower resistance I see what I want, happen.

That’s affirming.

My life is affirmed. Love Universe has for me is affirmed. My deservedness is affirmed. My worthiness is affirmed. My divinity is affirmed. I am affirmed.

My life: eternally more

And in all that affirmation, I know, for certain, I create my reality.

There’s always more to know, there’s always more joy to come, there’s always more to appreciate. More is my eternal life, always moving into more. Always seeing fruits of my desires showing themselves to me.

And so I relax in my now, increasingly clear. There is no rush. There is no pressure. There are no deadlines. All is well. Life is good.

And so am I.

How To Enjoy The One Thing That Overcomes Split Energy

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A common experience among newer Positively Focused clients is “split energy”. Here’s why resolving split energy is not only important, it can be a joyful process and create a life worth loving.

But first, let’s look at what split energy is, why it happens and why so many people don’t know about split energy and thus struggle with it.

What is split energy?

Split energy happens when belief and desire conflict with one another. It can also happen when a person stands in two conflicting belief constellations.

For example, some of my clients want to believe the idea that “you create your reality” leads to a heaven-on-earth life. But beliefs such as “there is an objective reality beyond human control” conflict with that.

Another example: many people want lives where money isn’t an issue, or where they have lots of money. At the same time though, they believe “money doesn’t grow on trees” or “the only way I can get income is through a job”, or “debt is just a fact of life”. These beliefs conflict with a life where money is plentiful. The conflict creates split energy, which feels like confusion, anxiety, uncertainty, or feeling emotionally stuck.

My mentor adds an awesome perspective:

Continuing to tell stories of shortage only continues to contradict your desire for abundance, and you cannot have it both ways: You cannot focus upon unwanted and receive wanted. You cannot focus upon stories about money that make you feel uncomfortable and allow into your experience what makes you feel comfortable. A different story will bring different results: My thoughts are the basis for the attraction of all things that I consider to be good, which includes enough money, and health, for my comfort and joy.

– Abraham

To summarize: Split energy happens when a person wants something, but doesn’t believe it is possible. Or when past beliefs conflict with a desire.

Split energy means having a foot in beliefs that conflict with other beliefs or desires. Split energy often feels like confusion, uncertainty and anxiety. (Photo by Sherise VD on Unsplash)

Why it’s a struggle

Many people struggle with split energy while not knowing they’re struggling, which is why split energy is a struggle. They think negative emotions indicating split energy – confusion, feeling uncertain, anxiety, insecurity – are just parts of life.

But life is supposed to be fun, easy and filled with self-fulfilling desires. Actually, that’s what’s happening all the time, even for someone with split energy.

A person with split energy, however, creates over and over, realities containing and reflecting back to them the combination of their split energy. That’s why nothing seems to change for the person, or why things change, but often stay the same or get worse.

In other words, life SUCKS when split energy dominates. 🙄

It’s more common than you think

Many popular communities generate split energy situations among their members. Religions are a major culprit. Religions as sometimes practiced, contradict beliefs that are normal, wholesome and good. But some people in these organizations create split energy when their natural, normal, wholesome desires contradict religious doctrine.

For example, a person who finds transgender women attractive, but who also is Christian or Jewish might struggle with religious beliefs contradicting their desires. Their religious upbringing keeps them feeling unworthy, fearful, in shame, and in self reproach because religious teachings do not allow or agree that certain desires are natural, normal, wholesome and good.

You are god in a human body

Another example: it’s very difficult for a Christian or a Jew, for example, to believe they are God in a human body creating reality as they move through life. Creating reality is God’s job, religions say. Many also claim a HUGE gap exists between “being human” and “God”. So human thinking they’re God borders on blasphemy!

It’s also difficult for some Christians to accept that they can fulfill all their desires themselves, especially desires Christianity tells them are sinful or bad or will send them to hell.

A major source of split energy are religions combined with an authentic self at odds with religious doctrine. (Photo by Dejan Livančić on Unsplash)

I know some people practicing religious-inspired beliefs do not have that experience. So I’m not saying that religion is bad across-the-board. If you are a believer, a Christian or a Jew, or whatever, and you’re happy, then enjoy your happy life. 😌

People do come to me though from these communities seeking what I offer: freedom from struggle, emotional and physical pain, anguish sometimes and even fear and hopelessness born of split energy generated from their desires conflicting with their religious beliefs.

Clients brought up in religion literally have one foot in their religious beliefs, and another foot testing the waters of something they know holds promise. They want to be Positively Focused.

But their old beliefs, their dominant, practiced ways of being, learned through their religion, conflict with what they feel: that they are an eternal, enlightened, God in human form.

Other split energy sources

Religion isn’t the only source that can create split energy. Beliefs adopted from one’s parents or one’s culture often contradict the Positively Focused approach, or what some of my clients affectionately call the “perrydigm” 😌.

One of my client’s parents, for example, raised her to believe a woman must serve her family to the exclusion of her own desires. She is a powerful woman and is embracing her Positively Focused approach with relish. As a result she is moving quickly through soothing these old beliefs, as these text conversations illustrate.

And yet she finds it fascinating how much her old beliefs cause resistance in her which feels like a “struggle” to her. Her old beliefs tell her being Positively Focused and serving her own selfish desires is bad and wrong. When in fact there’s no better way to be than Positively Focused and selfishly pursuing one’s desires.

Why selfishness is good

Putting both feet in the Positively Focused camp results in maximum connection to one’s Broader Perspective. It is that maximum connection that allows all that one desires effortlessly into one’s life.

It creates joyful, exuberant lives, as Positively Focused people see their lives shaping to new beliefs, morphing from the old beliefs and creating Charmed Lives.

Charmed Lives lead to self love. And when one loves oneself, it is simple, easy, and joyful loving others. Being selfish you become the most generous person anyone knows, because you see others as reflections of yourself, which they are.

Integrating one’s beliefs so that they all reflect a Positively Focused perspective creates wonderful epiphanies, seemingly amazing coincidences. Clear indisputable manifestations are so convincing, they are undeniable. And in that undeniability one releases resistance born of bogus beliefs.

Joyful non-resistance

Releasing resistance, the Positively Focused person uncovers natural joy. That joy is godliness, the God in human form everyone is.

So, the more one stands with both feet in the Positively Focused camp, the more Charmed their life becomes. All my clients experience this to one degree or another.

While the “perrydigm” is a cute play on my name and what I offer, my client’s desire, however weak or strong, moves the Universe in their favor. Not me.

The Universe stands ready to deliver to anyone life consistent with their godliness, their worthiness, their natural connection joyful being.

Everyone experiences joyful lives. Bogus beliefs mask that experience. Split energy results. Cleaning that up starts from a clear desire for joy. The rest happens automatically.

How Great Life Gets When I Let Universe Life Me

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It’s fun watching my life shape to my Positively Focused thoughts. It feels wonderful seeing my positive thoughts legitimize themselves by creating realities consistent with them.

I know all thoughts do that, of course. Any thought thought long enough will draw to the thinker evidence proving the thought “true”. When enough evidence gets created, the thought no longer is a thought. It becomes reality, then a belief. The belief fades into the background of my awareness. Life then becomes “how it is.”

That’s accurate to say for any thought that has become a belief. Which is why I don’t concern myself with people who disagree with me about what I share through Positively Focused.

Plenty of people out there think “you create your reality through your thoughts” is a bunch of hogwash. But they don’t understand the preceding paragraphs. They don’t know their thought “it’s hogwash” became a belief long ago and is out of their awareness now that it has become a belief, and attracts evidence of its “truth”.

That’s why I don’t spend time trying to convince someone “you create your reality through your thoughts”…unless they’re a client. 😊

Clients are different

A client is open. They’re willing to consider new possibilities. They want to believe. That makes seeing around existing beliefs more likely.

What I love about what I do with my clients is this: It’s easy for me to say “you create your reality through your thoughts” and point to my life, as full of evidence as it is. It’s also easy for people to dismiss such evidence.

But as more clients come to Positively Focused, create extraordinary lives as my current clients are, it gets harder and harder to deny that something different is happening.

Nearly all my clients are extraordinarily excited about their lives. They’re engaged and happy. They’re having fun discovering what I’ve discovered. And in their discovery I find joy too.

Client work then becomes play. It’s a win-win for both parties. My clients enjoy Charmed Lives. I enjoy watching that. And I grow a larger and larger, undeniable body of evidence that Universe loves us all and gives us all for that which we ask.

Evidence like this from a client session:

I Like Being Positively Focused – I Love Being Me

Life feels good when I'm Positively Focused
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Here’s a series of stories I tell often. They’re why I experience a consistent happy life born of Positively Focused thoughts.

These thoughts create life experiences consistent with what I want, while keeping experiences I don’t want from finding me. It’s like magic, or a spell, but it’s not that. It’s just what happens when I focus on good-feeling thoughts. You can do this too. Try these. See what happens. You know they’re working when you feel good.

  • I like feeling my way to better and better feeling experiences
  • I know I’m doing that when dreams delight me
  • I know I’m doing that when I feel ecstasy from dreaming
  • I know I’m doing that when reliving dreams long into the day comes effortlessly 
  • I know I’m doing that when I feel good
  • When I feel good frequently, I see my life match that
  • Things coming my way delight me
  • I feel ecstasy in things I get to do
  • I see Universe wink at me in moments of divine orchestration
  • I see more and more of those moments all the time
  • Until I see them in nearly every moment
  • I love being physical
  • I love being more and better
  • I love tuning to that and in doing so bringing more and better to the world through who I be and what I’m inspired to do
  • I love having and knowing and fulfilling my purpose
  • I love being me
  • I love being eternal
  • I love Broader Perspective 
  • I love loving
  • I love me 

My Love Of Life Is Palpable

  • I love where I am
  • I love how good where I am is
  • I lean more and more towards my abundance, and see more abundance as a result
  • I love the peculiar state of seeing with the mind and eyes of god
  • It’s becoming less and less peculiar as I experience it more
  • I love seeing life this way, perfect in every way, in it’s always becoming
  • I love how joyful it feels
  • I love how constant that feeling is becoming
  • I love my life
  • I love me
  • I love my Inner Being
  • I love how palpable my love of life becomes the more I love life

How I Make My Days Even Better, Happier Days

Positively Focused is the way to get everything I want.
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I like turning already good days, into better days. I do that, not by trying to “make” my days better, but by removing resistance I create about how great my days already are. When I do that, being positively focused, my days get even better.

What do I mean by “removing resistance I create”?

Every day, these days, I simultaneously feel pulled in many potentially enjoyable directions. For example, this morning, a new client sent a wonderful text, detailing an experience she had after our session two days ago. I’m inspired to respond with additional insights. The idea of doing that so feels so good!

But…

Another inspiration has me sharing information contained within this blog post with the men and women working with me on Copiosis.

This blog post began as an Instant Message I was writing to my team. I was answering a question they had about how I find so much joy in day-to-day living.

Sharing this blog post, in its original form as an IM felt equally as good as responding to my client. Both opportunities vied for my attention. But that’s not all…

Another impulse encouraged making video social media thumbnails for videos about Copiosis my team has sitting in our cue. I love doing that creative work. It’s fun and satisfying seeing the results. Results like this:

A Copiosis video thumbnail. Something I love doing when I'm Positively Focused.
An example of a video thumbnail. Curious about how and why babies should be paid the moment they’re born? Watch the 2 minute video.

Yet other impulses encourage hopping on Twitter and promoting Copiosis, working on the volunteer strategic project my team and I are creating or working on a Positively Focused illustration panel.

Then there’s the joy I feel in the idea “go upstairs and make something to eat”, and “check in with your client, see how he’s doing”. There’s even an impulse to watch something on Netflix!

There’s probably 20 or so impulses, all feeling wonderful, that I COULD do RIGHT NOW.

Positively Focused illustration panel of a crosswalk activation button
An example of one of my artistic panels I’m enjoying making.

Finding ease in the abundance

It’s easy to get into a seemingly positive loop of “what to do?”… that leads to feeling “overwhelm”, which stems from thinking “I don’t have enough time to do all these things”.

Overwhelm can lead to other thoughts and feelings, thoughts of lack or time scarcity, feeling impatience, even feeling dissatisfaction with what I’m doing NOW, which was, at the time, writing the IM I eventually shared with my team. 

Here’s the thing though:

The many things available back then, which still exist now as opportunities as I edit this blog version of the IM, represented a form of abundance. I call it “opportunity abundance.”

But this abundance doesn’t feel like abundance when I think thoughts like “I don’t have time to do all these things.” Instead, this abundance feels like lack, like too many things to do…this abundance, rather than feeling like abundance can cause me to feel self-pity…if I let it go that far.

That can spiral into a lack of appreciation of the abundance. And that lack of appreciation can effect other areas I really want to experience abundance in, such as the area of finances.

After all, I know the best path to realizing financial abundance that already exists in my reality is appreciating all other forms of abundance that aren’t financial abundance.

Having a ton of things I COULD do, all of which thrill me to think about, IS ABUNDANCE. So rather than going down the path of negative thinking…

I get Positively Focused

I monitor my thoughts, right now, and practice accepting where I am, NOW and enjoying what I’m doing, NOW. I do this while realizing those other things I also want to do aren’t going anywhere.

And if I’m successful, which I usually am, I find myself in JOY, NOW. I don’t find myself in a Fear Of Missing Out (FOMO) belief about these other things I could be doing and therefore resenting or feeling impatient about, what I am doing now

Does make sense?

Finding the Positively Focused space, not only do I realize plenty of time to enjoy all these things, I realize too a state of lightness, a lighter way of being. Standing there, life gets really good.

Because not only am I enjoying my now, in this day, the rest of this day and future days, get better too as there are more things to do than I can possibly do in a today. Which means, there are plenty of fulfilling, fun things to do tomorrow and the next day and the next.

That’s life mastery. It’s also how I make my days even better, happier days.

If People Only Knew…

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Extreme pleasure filled me this morning while dreaming. So much pleasure I woke and flowed in between stunningly beautiful and fulfilling dreams. Waking from them I felt the joy of them, the camaraderie between me and Angels, most of whom were female.

So many I experienced, revealed in, went back into, experienced more, then woke again in peace and clarity. Love, certainty, love, being seen, love, and being known, cared for, attended to, accompanied…so many positive experiences…

Experiences people expect from other people; boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands and wives pale in comparison to these experiences. If they only knew the real, lasting, unwavering unconditional love of their ongoing now origin!

“Positive” doesn’t capture the richness of experience, emotion or immersion, nor does it approach how delighted I feel right now, feeling this while watching and feeling these words flowing through my fingers, falling short in describing how I feel, what I’ve experienced, what I know.

What’s really cool now is, nearly every day, every morning, this happens. Weeks ago I wanted to savor every ecstatic instance. Scarcity and fear fueled that desire. I thought such experiences wouldn’t last. Several weeks later they still come, their ecstasy overflowing, overwhelming, washing over me like waves crashing upon uninhabited, unexplored treasure islands.

My desire shifted from savoring born of scarcity, to savoring in their abundance while expecting, believing, knowing…such experiences know no end.

Like my life knows no end.

So my delight continues, ever delighting me leaving me in stupendous awe at life’s paradoxical yet real-as-fuck dual-and-yet-not dual reality. Physical and nonphysical known by me as one continuous reality.