“I was going to murder them then kill myself”
“Jeff” had a rough life, all because of how he interpreted experiences he had when very young. He also struggled with his Trans-attraction, which is why he came to the Positively Focused Practice.
One particular result of his interpretations was he thought two men he considered his “Best friends” had “deserted” him in his time of need after his father passed. He was so upset with that experience he had decided to buy a gun, go murder the two, then kill himself.
It took Jeff several years to sooth that intention. However, today, Jeff says while he still feels negative about what happened and is working on that, he’s far from wanting to murder anyone or kill himself. In fact, he said, he can see how those two people were suffering themselves and reflecting back to Jeff a dimension of his own suffering, which allows Jeff to feel compassion for the two men instead of retribution/rage towards them, which actually is rage/rejection at/of himself.